LOL. In ways you are right. We all try to make a story to explain ourselves... to ourselves. The problem for me can be that the list of story lines is just way too long and it is just way too complicated to riddle out what the plot is. That paragraph is just a little part of the story, but it is enough to confuse me and others. I look strong, but am far stronger than I look. I have a monopoly on freckles. I also move oddly. To me, people often seemed to be moving in slow motion. My reactions are fast (or used to be in a younger day). I did love wrestling, handball and skiing. Then there were those big waves. What I did for fun will get most people killed. I effect the guys as well, the drunks anyway. At 10:30 when the first twit gets a full tank of gas, they come and give me the look of death. I learned to say "I must be the biggest and you must be the drunkest". When it got through, the answer was always "out in the parking lot". Funny thing though, if I decided it had to happen, I'd smile and that would actually scare a fighting drunk. OK, I have to admit, my description was deceptive, not because it is inaccurate, but because of what it omits. Physically, I'm unusual, but mentally I'm far more unusual and people can pick up on that very quickly. It cannot be hidden long. I run at a mental speed and energy that exhausts people. 'Yeah, likely story', but I get paid for writing advanced software. For fun I write about human genetics, instincts and philosophy. I collect skills for a hobby. Nah, I ain't rich any more than I'm beautiful but I'm brilliant, something few will forgive you for and that is very hard to bridge to other people. At least I can charm people, but that's only good for amusement. Connecting is almost impossible.
'Nuf said. It's a long list of really unusual things that I just have never riddled out. People want to be unique, but not me. I'd rather have a path to follow instead of always trying to find a way, any frikin way, that works for me. Now at this point, y're going "cough cough bullshit", but if it were true then there would have to be evidence. Right? On one end, you can search on "Genetics For A New Human Ecology", my favorite of my three books, and you will see something you've never seen before. ... It's actually worse than that. I'm way out there... Where, I dunno.
There was this girl though, but she was afraid of her own intelligence and why not? She was cute. Why put off guys with that ridiculous intelligence? Why see the world it showed her? Hell, she saw what it did to me.
On the other end, weren't we talking about physical nature originally? Then if I'm that physical, there should be some evidence of that. Right? I'll offer just exhibit A. Look at this page and poke around the (seahunt) site a little and look at the top right of the home page. Look around. See why people thought I would die. I was just looking for a challenge. ... I never got hurt though and that was just one of my bad habits... Nah, I gave up trying to figure me out. Just too weird. You tell me the story. Enjoy M
